T.J. paced the living room floor. How
had Lily allowed this to happen. He'd warned her not to try anything
stupid like that. He'd reminded her about the ways of men. Fists
balled at his sides he fought the urge to hit something – anything.
But that wouldn't help. She was older now, and she was forgetting
the pain that men inflicted upon the helpless. It was a very good
thing that he stepped in when he did. She could have been hurt.
T.J. was the pragmatic one; the
protector. He'd been there for her for so many years and he knew
she'd listen to him again. He would just keep reminding her - bring
the pain to the surface - allow it to bubble and agitate her back
into guarded paralysis.
T.J. remembered the dress. Pushing
his way down the hallway he found it where she'd dropped it, on the
bedroom floor. It was pressed tightly to the carpet, creased and
forlorn. Her footprints were still embedded into it; she'd tried to
erase the memory of the night before.
He picked it up and inspected the
red stain along its front, then squeezed it into a ball and headed
for the kitchen. Flipping the garburator to “on”, he grabbed a
wooden spoon and pushed one corner of the dress into its hungry
mouth, forcing it down until it disappeared, the noisy churning of
its jaws the only remaining evidence of its existance. Now she could
move on.
T.J. flipped on the T.V set and
dropped into the big brown suede chair. There was nothing on at this
time of day; nothing worthwhile. The apartment was quiet. He'd
called in sick for Lily; it was the least he could do. He knew she
couldn't face Aaron just yet.
Flipping through an endless stream
of channels was something of an exercise in distraction. His rhythm
broke on the Movie Channel. He recognized the film - Gardens of the
Night. Gillian Jacobs was so beautiful and so broken – like his
Lily. She, too, suffered under the hands of her abuser, but the
perpetrator was not her father. Gillian would eventually go home.
Lily could not.
The phone rang and T.J.'s body
tensed at the sound. He allowed it to ring through until the click
of the message machine.
“Lily, it's me, Aaron. I just
wanted to say...well...I'm sorry for last night. I don't know what
happened exactly, but...you're not here today and I wondered if it
had anything to do with me. I'd like to talk about it.” There was
a heavy pause, a sigh. “Call me sometime...please.”
T.J. stood from the chair and
shuffled to the kitchen. He pressed “play” on the machine and
listened again, hit “delete” and the message was gone.
To be continued...
To be continued...
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